I think this was one of my famous phrases in the daily management communications log in one of the restaurants I worked in "Outta Time, Outta Money, Outta Luck!" (The evening was particularly tough.) The statement could describe to a degree the rest of this month for me.
Liz and I are only two weeks and a couple days from the Trans Ohio Symposium weekend May 30, 31, and June 1st. My workshop will be the same as last year-the basic where, how and whys of how I was able to begin HRT and transition so late in life. Liz, on the other hand should be doing her own workshop about being the partner of a person who does. The dynamics of how we identify alone, causes many heads to spin.
As of now and probably in the foreseeable future, both of us retain our birth genitalia. I retained my sexual attraction to women as did Liz. All of that is simple enough until everyone wants to know how Liz and I met and was it when I was more or less a guy. (No I wasn't.)
Perhaps a workshop could be called "The Taboo of Trans Lesbianism and It's Effect on the Gay and Lesbian Community." Then again, I'm lucky to get done what I have to do, with workshop handouts etc.
I have also given myself a deadline to get my book "Stiletto's on Thin Ice" E-published by then. I'm going through the "Vook" publishing tool, from which for a fee, they distribute to Amazon and Barnes & Noble. In order for all that to happen I have to leave an extra week of time. So, using anther time honored expression from my Dad growing up, "It's time to S__t or get off the pot." As you can see, I'm a "outta time person writing."
In the cash department, no difference either. I knew coming into all of this and taking an early Social Security retirement, I would have to scramble to make ends meet-and I have. So now, I'm not buying any new sun dresses for a Caribbean cruise. I would just get sick on it anyhow! I'm just trying to scratch together a few extra sheckles for some party time in Columbus (Ohio) which is a wonderfully diverse city.
Finally, I have always believed luck is what you make of it. When I set myself up to do dumb or impossible things, I did fail and vice versa. Sort of like thinking the mini skirt and heels I wore to the mall so many years ago was a good idea! Now, to the best of my ability, I think what I'm doing at Trans Ohio is the right thing for the right reasons and at the end of the day-that's all I can do.
So forgive me if Cyrsti's Condo is looking a little dusty these days. Maybe I can get one of those cross dressed "French Maid Sissy Types" (Pictured at left.) to come clean it? Will she work for fish nets and heels?